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November 1, 2025 · 3 MIN READ

The Algorithm is My Dealer

I’m Still Listening

It was 4:30 a.m.
Everyone else was asleep—except me, Fred Again, Ca7riel & Paco Amoroso, and whatever divine chaos lives inside YouTube’s algorithm. One minute I was brushing crumbs off my shirt, half-awake in the blue glow of a monitor, and the next I was electrocuted by rhythm. Not just tapping my foot—levitating. The sound hit me like a truck made of lasers. I grinned like someone who just discovered how to breathe underwater.

This happens to me a lot. Because I hunt it.
New music isn’t a side hobby—it’s a damn sacrament.

Every Monday, I wake up like it’s Christmas morning for weirdos: Spotify’s Discover Weekly opens like a mystery box from the music gods. YouTube spits out videos I’ve never seen—underground sets, deconstructed club edits, some dude in Brazil making jazz out of kitchenware. SoundCloud recommends something called “lo-fi acid punk” and I click it immediately because of course I do. And sometimes?

Sometimes the algorithm earns its wings.

A song hits out of nowhere and boom—adrenaline. The kind you don’t get from coffee or good sex or therapy or meditation. This is different. This is holy glitch energy. This is future-shock bliss wrapped in bass. This is me shouting “WHAT IS THIS?” at no one and running it back four times before the drop even lands.

And here’s the thing: I keep hearing people I love—music lovers!—say shit like:

“I don’t really listen to new stuff anymore.”
“It’s all kind of the same.”
“I just stick to what I know.”

I get it. Life gets busy. Your ears calcify. Your taste settles like sediment in a bottle that doesn’t get shaken anymore. But let me tell you: you are leaving magic on the table. Not because you’re old. But because you forgot that sound can change your body chemistry.

Let me break it down how it works for me:

There are three kinds of new.

  1. Newly Released – Fresh out the oven. Fred Again. Zep. Florry. They are bending sound in real time. It’s like listening to the future try to talk.

  2. New to Me – Sleaford Mods. These guys have been around forever. But to me? They were a feral little British surprise that showed up like a drunk poet at the wrong party—and I loved it. Their noise gets me.

  3. New to Our Culture – Nigerian punk from the ‘70s. Turkish psych rock. Japanese ambient jazz. This isn’t “world music.” This is worldbreaking music. It’s been alive elsewhere and just hadn’t crawled into my skull yet. Now it lives there rent-free.

The point isn’t to be cool. Or to have the deepest crates. The point is that new music makes me feel like I’m still alive. Still growing. Still electric.

I don’t listen to new music because it’s good for me.
I listen to it because it wrecks me in the best way.
It’s a reminder that the brain isn’t done evolving. That there are still grooves it hasn’t danced on. That you can be 43 and hear something that makes you feel 17 and immortal again.

Some songs don’t just slap—they recalibrate your atoms.

So no, I won’t stop listening. I won’t get nostalgic and call it quits. I won’t pretend the past had all the answers. Because the next track could be the one that punches a hole in my day and lets the sunlight pour in sideways.

And when it happens, I’ll be there.
Grinning like a lunatic.

Hitting replay.

Again and again and again.

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